Today is the PERFECT day to get to know Monica, if you want to get to the nitty-gritty. Yesterday, everything that could go wrong did. And what didn’t, waited until today to go haywire. Seeing anyone frustrated and defeated gives you a good sense of what kind of person they really are, and I am no exception.
Being the healthy individual that I am, I did not allow these feelings of irritation to fester. I let them rip. I had my pout-pout fish face on, and sighed heavily. My son spent his $2 on cow tales to cheer me up, my mom took the kids out for a swim in the pool, and my husband sent me lovely text messages – all in an effort to cheer me up. It was all a no-go.
And after my beloved Packers lost last night, well, that was the last straw. I hit the hay, but sleep eluded me. Too many thoughts of how can I fix this were flying around my head.
Today, I keep reminding myself of all the blessings I have. I have vocal chords that work so I can yell at my unresponsive laptop. I have legs to stomp away on when I’m pissed at my ineffectiveness at fixing it. I have lungs that I am able to use to take deep breaths in an effort to relax. I have eyes that see clearly, with the aid of glasses I can afford, and the tears trickle out as my coffee spills on my flash drive and fries the backup of my school work.
And thankfully, I have a brain that tells me it is not the end of the world, and that in a few hours I’ll be calm enough to hit the reset button and start again.